An sms from one of his exes..

"Hey sis. Judging from d source of which u hav obtained my number, i say ur pretty pissed. I hav no intention at all of ruining ur relationship, nor disrespecting you. And as much as i would love to make him suffer, I dont intend to hurt u. I hav to say, he's a moronious jerk! but tho u might be doubting it right now, he loves u, i think he really does. N dh xdepape pun between us, kwn pn x dh. No worries. Sorry if i've caused any tension. Take care. Salam"

i have nothing to say. This sms ruined my appetite. skipped lunch although i was hungry..

Just Bong N Me..

Ladies and gents,


I am here to announced that i am now with someone.. yes... that day has finally arrived.. His name is Bong... And my, my, my, what a hunk he is... The waiting has been worth it...

Now, i've just aroused ur curiousity, right? Now, now, before you start getting all the wrong idea... Bong is not a man.. although at the moment, he's all the 'man' that i need... For your information, bong is made of metal, attached by 4 wheels and runs on a 1.3 cc engine... Hehehehe.. sorry to dissapoint you... my 'putera kayangan' has yet to make his way to my heart (probably lost somewhere during the haze period :))) ).

You might think i am making a big deal out of a metal that's pretty much 1 of the biggest factors contributing towards the green house effects.. well, say what u want... I'm in love, and all things from where i am now looks good and dandy :p...

Bong gave me the chills the very day i was told of 'his' arrival... Was almost suffering from nervous breakdown.. thought about how i am going to handle this new 'love' - financially speaking... Asked around if this is how it must have felt to give birth (minus the pain :))... and these are some of the answers:

1. C - i felt the same way during my wedding day

2. 999 - y? it's like you are on your 'malam pertama' - ( #@$9 %^&*((()%$##@ - my reply to that remark)

3. S - la... dun worry...wait till u see the maintenance bill... by then, u can't wait to 'dump' him - ha???

so, i guess... may whatever that pass me by... be it rain or shine.. flood or drought... it's just me and u babe... just me and bong...

Kamisama Mou Sukashi Dake

It means "God, gives me more time"... A serial j-drama i watched over the weekends.. kaneshiro as the hero n fukada as the heroin.. heard so much abt it, decided to watch it myself to know wat the hu-ha's abt... And suprise2, i'm not that dissappointed with the ending although did shed a few tears ( fukada died in the end, on her WEDDING DAY.. i know2, pass me the Kleenex :))

Well, that title also reflects my currently "living-on-the-fast-lane" life.. Been on 6th gear from February till now. May 2007 is to be the most busy time at work since there are big plans those big bosses wanted to introduce..In other words, expect no sleep, expect no life.. ;p... but seriously, although some would thrive on this fast-pace life, i feel like i need a pause button .... to have just a bit more time with my own life, as a daughter, a sister, a friend and as a Hamba to Allah S.W.T.. Few days ago, i was told that my juniors back at school was killed in a car crash.. They were just 19 years old and 2 of them, were the only child in the family.. Although i don't know them, but we conventian have this traditions, all conventian are our sisters.. Imagine my shock when i heard of this news.. Had the same news before few years back, involving someone i'm very close to..So, to hear it again... was.... heartbreaking... So young, so much life lies ahead, yet Allah decided to have them back to be in that 'better place'.. How would my ending be like? Will i be surrounded by friends and families? Yet to be determined.. hopefully, i will die in IMAN for that is the sole purpose for any khalifah to be put in this world. Insya-Allah...

Kamisama Mou Sukashi Dake Kudasai (God, give me more time please?)

Baby Steps Now..

Assalammualaikum and Hi to all...

So, this is it... i've succumbed to the pressure within.. This is not my first blog.. Had to much going on that wish to be kept private, hence ignorance was the way i choosed to deal with it. In my case, it would be ignoring my blog, now dead, somewhere in cyberspace.. Plus, i am truly ashamed to admit this: I forgot the password.:p...

So, how does it feel to walk down this road again? Judging from my baby steps.. i can see a a new light right there in the horizon (nope, am not high or related to that).. am i truly ready to share my deepest, darkest thoughts to friends, family and strangers? Am still contemplating...

But, let me say it out loud why i'm back.. I need an exit channel... Need another point of view, another perspective... Plus, there are things that's hard to be said verbally, hence, let me type the hurt away..Sounding like a drama queen huh? Hehehe..

Ok, i guess these steps needs some rest.. for now...